Push (Sapphire)

“I bite my fingernails till they look like disease, pull strips of my skin away. Get Daddy's razor out cabinet. Cut cut cut arm wrist, not trying to die, trying to plug myself back in."

“I bite my fingernails till they look like disease, pull strips of my skin away. Get Daddy's razor out cabinet. Cut cut cut arm wrist, not trying to die, trying to plug myself back in."

U.S.A. / 1996

This is the book that inspired the movie, Precious. Like always, the book is better than the movie. When I first saw the movie and read the book, I thought it was sensationalist. To an extent, I still think it's  poverty porn. However, I learned that Sapphire, herself, suffered similar sexual abuse to the book's main character. I'm not sure who this book's audience is. Audience is everything. I struggle to enjoy some books by black authors because it is sometimes clear that they are pandering to the white gaze.